An altar

I first encountered graffiti for myself in the woods. Beside a parking lot, just close enough to be noticed through the trees but too far back to recognize, a little up a slope, at the end of a trace left by its seekers—an altar.

It seemed to me an altar—not a place for worship, but a place for rites. It was a low, long trapezoid of rain-dark concrete. From the unknown depth of the leaves that lay around its base it rose like the peak of a buried pyramid. It may have gone deep indeed: I later identified it (I forget how) as the base of one of the struts of a world war watchtower for German submarines.

Its surface was covered in scrawls and scratches of nonsense and gibberish. There were English letters, English sounds and arrangements of sounds, but no English meanings—no regularity of language or code, only the dreamlike suggestion of meaning that can be grasped onto, but not held, delicate, slippery, bottomless. What promise of secrets! Surely if there were deep unseen machinery in the world this was the place to discover it.

I copied down a small page full of symbols and signs. I have lost it since—but even while I kept it I avoided looking at it. It felt like admitting an intruder.

Those who carved and marked this altar meant only secrecy, not mystery, and only privacy, not ritual. I was a child Kircher of small-town hieroglyphs, willing significance from mere meaning.

But to know that I was foolish does not cheapen the experience. Nature's final dominion is not only asserted in overgrowth and decay. Nature guides the accumulation of anonymous and inscrutable human depredations as surely as it guides the tracks of vines and the webs of spiders. Such places feel sacred because they bear witness to what we otherwise conceal: we, too, are part of nature. The god who loves his beetles is the same god who loves us. We are building his altars.


Reinvention is either repetition or reconception. Repetition achieves the same result by the same method; reconception achieves the same result by a new method: reinvention is not valueless for the repeater, but it is valueless in itself; reconception is valuable in itself because it adds to understanding.

Repetition is valueless in itself because it is wasteful. It has value for three conditions: first, when the desired invention is unattainable, but its use is familiar; second, when the idea of the invention travels faster or more freely than its workings, and can be reinvented more efficiently than obtained; and third, when the waste of reinvention is outweighed by the desire for the habit of invention. The third value is mine.

Invention is not itself a faculty, but it is the simplest compound of the faculties, employing reason, memory, and imagination equally. That old scheme is incidental to the definition—any division will do; what matters is the equality. Invention is that use of the mind which is limited not by the power of its parts, but by the speed and life of its connections; not by its strength, but by its agility.

It requires practice; but because it is an act of all faculties, set problems, which exclude memory; études, which exclude imagination; and exercises, which exclude reason, cannot properly develop it. It must grow with a round habit, equal on all sides. For this, it requires real problems: problems that arise in useful work and productive projects.

Yet most of the problems we encounter have already been solved. For the sake of efficiency, speed, and mortal timesaving, research and reuse are usually the right choice for any problem considered alone. But what of problems generally? Invention is a habit; and there is no habit of invention without reinvention.

Otherwise an act of reinvention can have two values of its own: the public value of a new approach; and the private value of understanding. These values, though independent, may coexist.

The value of a new approach is plainest in mathematics, where the result is demonstrably the same. Transcendent numbers transcend the awkward operational definitions by which human beings named them—the ratio of diameter to circumference, the rate of interest perpetually compounded—they are rediscovered again and again, the world's true eternal conspiracy, everything traces back to them, they are behind all the fronts, inside all the shells and shadows. The sums of infinite series, the falling of coins on grids, the charted growth of flowers—there are an infinity of ways to reinvent them, and every way adds to our mastery of the world by revealing new shapes under which these our permanent companions can be found—culminating in the glorious absurdity and terrifying brevity of Euler's identity.

In the spectrum of intellect mathematics is usually marked at one extreme, poetry at the other; but here they touch. Most poetry is the reinvention of morality on new models and in new contexts: some new model perception (a flea, a red wheelbarrow), some new model interaction (the death of a lutenist god, the speech of a leech-gatherer), some new modeling context (splendor in the grass, dark Satanic mills, the worshipers who must tighten the bolts unwarned). They are not alone: much of technology has been reinvented: what was built on rumor before the plans arrived, like the cotton gin; what was reinvented blindly to avoid infringement of a patent, like the PC.

The private value of reinvention is to advance understanding. The simplest form is the imperative to recast another's thoughts in your own words. But this is not really students' business: by rephrasing they better remember another's understanding; but by reinvention one better understands. Indeed, where the strictures of licensing and regulation, and the friction of custom and community, outweigh the benefit in study and imitation, the rational course is to reinvent what you would know, rather than learn it. The hard parts are done already: you know that it is possible, what it is good for, why it is needful; the usual limits of human ability and conditions of human fallibility hold; the work is a matter of filling in blanks, which can usually be spliced with pieces of other disciplines.

All intellectual activities can be divided into those where reinvention is useful and those where reinvention is necessary. Those in which reinvention is useful but not necessary are the sciences and design; those in which reinvention is necessary are the arts, and the professions.

There are new things to be done in science, new discoveries to be made, new instruments leading to new worlds of exploration; and there are new things to be done in design, new needs to answer, new patterns to define. Here the effort of reinvention could always be applied otherwise.

But in the arts and the professions nothing is really new. To choose two, there is nothing new in literature or law. We cannot add new phenomena to those that Homer and Shakespeare knew; we cannot add new patterns to those that Aristotle and Machiavelli documented. If something in literature or law appears to be new, then it is gibberish, or it is deceit, or you do not understand it. Nothing can be done in either that is not an reinvention; yet we must do both, and for the same reasons: partly because life commands it, as it commands the yearly reinvention of flowers; but more because we who desperately need them cannot otherwise have them.

The criticism of literature and the philosophy of law do not create and do not decide law or literature; they cannot in themselves save or sustain anything. Shakespeare, however praised, without imitators would be forgotten; a constitution, however respected, without reinterpreters would obsolesce.

A generation passes away; what they loved and revered we cannot learn to love and revere from them. Their love is dust in the ground, their reverence collects dust in attics. We can love the life they loved and obey the law they obeyed only for our own sake; we must reinvent them, not even to maintain them, but just to learn to see them. We cannot see how the world was built for us until we have rebuilt it.

(Two years)

When I began the Ruricolist I promised myself to continue it for at least two years. Two years suffice; after demonstrating two years I have nothing to prove. But I find that I want to continue. I have not done all that I meant to do this year, and I want to do more besides. This does not feel finished.

Still, it cannot last forever. The Ruricolist is pure trephination. Eventually, when the pressure goes down, I will run out of things to say and start repeating myself. When that happens, I will stop. But not yet and not soon.

[I almost forgot: the yearly index of first lines.]

  1. It is a weak mind which approves of only what it enjoys; it is as weak a mind which enjoys only what it approves of—if only because it is fainthearted to require something new to be explained and defended to you before you can decide whether you enjoy it.
  2. See an old man, a great lord.
  3. Community is best to have, worst to be had by.
  4. It seems wise to warn that the constant fission, branching, and cross-breeding of specializations, in both the sciences and the humanities, must in time, by depriving us of humanistic perspective, doom us to servile narrow-mindedness
  5. Forests have gods of their own that they suckle and shelter, the old gods/Left there by peoples who died in their forests and deer paths.
  6. Expanding the mind is as easy as reading; but enlarging the mind—not supplying it with new facts, or the fact of other perspectives, but opening it out to span them—is a demanding task, best and most easily done by travel, including tourism.
  7. There are only two possible bases on which to build a science of criticism: a criticism of perfection or a criticism of excellence.
  8. The student sat down across from his professor.
  9. The brilliant general Hannibal was beaten by the more brilliant general Scipio; but he was defeated first by the wise general Fabius, called Cunctator, the Delayer.
  10. Memetics is the idea (intended to evoke a science) that concepts, systems, religions, cultures, art forms, &c.—all known as memes—live and spread through populations as do viruses and parasites; making the history of human ideas the record of a kind of natural selection.
  11. Sojourning just outside New Orleans, I often walked on the levée by Lake Pontchartrain.
  12. Once there was a dark kingdom, without light or lamp
  13. I wish I could preach bookstores.
  14. Often, where I have been accustomed to walk, other people hike.
  15. A computer with the speed of a human brain would no more feel love and hate, fear death, or make art, than a computer with the speed of a dog's brain would bark and mark its territory.
  16. I followed the old dirt road on down/Into the blues country, where the trees/Grow thick, and the rivers are many and thin.
  17. Too much respect for suffering discourages compassion.
  18. To laugh at others can do them good.
  19. He asks the cold caller: "Why on earth would I want to put any more money in a hedge fund now?"
  20. On a small, rocky island, a gang of Johnny Rooks found by the water a little half-drowned creature.
  21. I saw your costly garden, then I asked:/"What kind of garden is this? All gray and blank/Flowers of bleach and bone.
  22. Do masterworks tend to occur at the beginning of an art form only because they are easiest then?
  23. Eclecticism is becoming one of those words—like empiricism or enthusiasm—that it is difficult to remember could ever have been insults.
  24. In the days before computers, when the possibility of intellectual accomplishment presupposed infinite tolerance for drudgery, the blink comparator was a device used in astronomy.
  25. The acute and pseudonymous Conrad H. Roth of Varieties of Unreligious Experience has written a post on my essay Questions on greatness, partly as a response to it, and partly, it seeems, to use it as a case study.
  26. The island was no island: it had been a hill in the park before the flood.
  27. Stevenson, somewhere, warns an aspiring writer to consider the insignificance of literature—particularly how little the world would change, had Shakespeare never lived.
  28. What was that?
  29. Forests have personalities, different as their different attitudes toward human beings.
  30. "Did you hear that?"
  31. Build. Only build.
  32. Surely there can be language without thought.
  33. It is as difficult to say what guesswork is as to say what the mind is, for guessing is not the action of any faculty of the mind; it is an action of the whole mind
  34. Is there meaning in music?
  35. In summertime I cannot dream of winter;/In wintertime I cannot trust in summer.
  36. I believe that anything can be said: that there are always words, though not always the strength to find and use them.
  37. The only virtue worth instilling in a child is to acknowledge mistakes without shame and to correct them without perversity.
  38. When I heard that snow was in the forecast here, I sneered.
  39. Sometime last year, while I was in town, I bought a battered old book out of a box in an antique store.
  40. J. Pilcrow and D. Fleuron (eds.), Historical and Criticial Perspectives on the Neglected Women's Martial Art of Pan-Fighting: Proceedings of the First International Symposium of the Association for Pan-Fighting Studies, Endower Institute Press, 2008, 25pp.,$45.00 (hbk), ISBN 01123581321345589144.
  41. Talking is a pleasure in itself.
  42. When I visited cities as a child, there would always be a moment, usually when I first came into sight of a block of apartments, when I would feel a mixture of panic and vertigo—horror.
  43. Once, when the world was young and there was little to tell or remember, there was a land where only good people lived: people who only thought and said and did good, who had never harmed one another.
  44. Walter Pater, in The Renaissance of 1873, so begins the essay "The School of Giorgione" . . .
  45. The subject calls for disclaiming.
  46. I say that bestsellers and blockbusters should be respected if only for being timely and workmanlike.
  47. Listen up, you want to hear this one/This guy, he thinks that he's the son of a king/A magic king who always saves the day/Appears from nowhere, beats the bad guys flat.
  48. Flowers are the oldest and first religion, whose sacraments the earth itself performs; the oldest and only universal language, for they say what cannot otherwise be said, and what cannot change as language changes: there are flowers for the graves of every people, and flowers in the grades of our extinct hominid brothers
  49. Sentimentality is often cruelty in soft focus; and the sentimental view of the imagination of little children, if sharpened, shows life as a cruel joke
  50. Among the prizes I hope to return with whenever I visit a secondhand bookstore are old textbooks.
  51. All theories of universal history, from Ibn Khaldoon to Toynbee, share the same uncertainty: to what do they apply?
  52. Now that the battle is over Mikhail lies in his sickbed/Dreaming of faraway home, dreaming of battles to come.
  53. Once all the work is done and nothing remains but waiting and biding, one may as well romanticize an unavoidable difficulty.

P.S. As of July 5th the book is no longer available. If you want a copy of the PDF, write me directly (address at right.)

Power outages

Once all the work is done and nothing remains but waiting and biding, one may as well romanticize an unavoidable difficulty. So long as you avoid sentimental attachment, to romanticize lets you force some benefit from an experience that would otherwise only humiliate and exhaust. True, it would seem more honest not to romanticize, to bear difficulty as difficulty without renaming it opportunity or insight; but life is not long enough for such purity.

Long power outages are a good example. They waste time, they subtract days from habit and use. And in Louisiana, where such power outages are usually due to hurricanes, they mean the labor of cleanup and repair and the horror of the radio. After Katrina, without power and thus without TV, I saw none of the sights that, as I read, horrified the nation and the world; but I heard voices. I heard a woman in terror calling from her attic as the water rose around her feet; I heard a radio host, in a soft radio host's voice, tell his caller that the best thing for her to do would be to find something heavy and break a hole through her roof. I don't remember if she called back. By the time I had my own property in order, volunteers were being left idle or turned back.

A long power outage is a kind of experiment in material culture. The result is not the present collapsing into the past, but a barrier giving way so the past and present can mingle—as in the third world. You learn strange things about familiar objects. A paperback book, for example, cannot be read by the light of a single candle. The pages do not lie flat; they shadow one another. Two candles are required, one for each side.

Most interesting is how thin the habits of technological life are. Only a week passed before I was rising with the sun and turning in at nightfall. Food preparation became so difficult that orderly meals reappeared. I found myself afraid of the waning of the moon and the nights of unappealable dark that followed.

That is a genuine connection with the past: old poems have been a little different ever since. It was, I think, more genuine than the recreations of re-enactors and the lives of sects that reject technologies, for we were not leaving technology; technology had left us: we were not withdrawing from society; society withdrew from all of us. No officials came to check, no functionaries offered help. Not for long, but for long enough, we were out of touch and beyond help.

Of course, the same event was much worse for others, who never had the chance to romanticize. But all of us are better prepared now—another Katrina should not rival the first. And as technology miniaturizes and gadgetizes, its empire of propane, lithium batteries, and LEDs does not abdicate when the lights go out.

But which past, and in which parts? Technology requires knowledge, and the limit of knowledge is the limit of technology. Nineteenth century technology with twenty-first century knowledge is twenty-first century technology. And there was always the car for spiritual refuge—the spaceship of the piney void.

But whose past? And how much? Not long ago I stood in a restored sharecropper's cabin (once converted from slave quarters). The last resident had died in the 1940s; his tools were still there (so they said), displayed mounted on his walls. Did a sense of what kind of effort each took give me some special sympathy with the resident? A kind of sympathy, yes, but a trivial one. The horrors of physical labor were the least of the horrors of sharecropping, and the greater ones—hopelessness, shame, fear, defeat—are neither uncommon nor obsolete. But (if the tools were truly his) I had one insight others might not have had: I saw that they were cheap tools, badly made and badly kept. I saw how much they must have hurt to use.

A power outage interrupts habit; and like all interruptions of habit it discovers by contrast. Life is lived mostly by a borrowed pace: observing paths, speed limits, hours, appointments; following, catching up on, awaiting. A power outage, in suspending all these rhythms, shows what is very hard to see when you are swayed by it—shows that these rhythms are not things that you can make part of you, but things that want to make you part of them. Within one life the only mastery possible is mastery in independence: you must measure what you give to each in the knowledge that it can take everything you have to give.

And then, suddenly, the lights come back on; the screens are alive again, the voices have faces again; you stop thinking about the weather; the hours are yours again to use, to waste or apply. Now you can rest, and smile at what strange thoughts there are to think when thinking is all you can do.

Kalashnikov's Dream

[This is both a metrical and thematic experiment. Metrically, it adapts the classical elegiac meter to English in a new way, employing slant rhymes between the third and sixth feet of the pentameter to supply quantitative force to an accentual meter. Slant rhyme achieves sonority without jingling, but is so much more difficult that, in the proportion of effort to effect, I cannot recommend this form of the elegy. Thematically it tells, with poetic license, how Mikhail Kalashnikov got the idea for the gun that bears his name. Presumably this has been done before in Russian; but I don't read Russian. The atom bomb is a common subject of literary meditation; and in the history of the 20th century Kalashnikov's dream was at least as important as Szilard's.]

Now that the battle is over Mikhail lies in his sickbed
   Dreaming of faraway home, dreaming of battles to come.
Thinking of windmills, thinking of lawnmowers, hoping for good work
   Something to earn him a place, something his country can bless.
Russia his motherland, cruel cold mother who knows and commands him
   Exiled his childhood land, gave him a freezing wind
Russia his motherland, spendthrift spending her children in millions,
   Loading her sons into trains, planting the fields with their bones.
Russia his mother is dying, bleeding from hundreds of deep wounds
   Counting the men to a gun—they have a gun for each man.
Mikhail was gentle but Germany's evil buries his conscience
   Killing his slow-fingered friends—nothing to raise but their hands.
Surely the soldier who fights for his homeland should have a fair chance
   Armed with a gun of his own, faithful through muddying rain.
Germany makes them so complex, even the parts have their pieces
   Numberless sockets and springs, pistons and delicate prongs
Some piece always remained when he put them together in secret.
   Though they would fire the same, surely each piece had a home?
Mikhail was trained for the weapons of farmers, lawnmowers threshers and grain mills,
   Even if he had a plan—still he would work all alone.
All that he knows is that all that is useful proves to be simple,
   Simple, plain as a pole; useful, sure as a nail.
All that he knows is that all that is complex is useless,
   Fickle as gambler's cards, faithless as diplomat's words.
Raw with the shame of his innocence Mikhail drifts off to deep sleep
   Thinks of the friends he has lost, thinks of how vain were their boasts
Dreams of a faceless rumor he heard told somewhere in darkness
   Telling the news of a bomb, news of men bottling doom
News of the race for a weapon whose hell fire godlessly damns men,
   Peoples a city with ghosts, blinds with the dawn of its blast.
Cold in his thin sheets Mikhail dreams of a way to do better
   What is its use at the last, leaving nothing but waste?
Mikhail dreams of a weapon cheaper than shoes for the soldier,
   Gun for the beaten and lost, gun for the faceless and least.
Gun to make every man equal, gun to take meaning from conquest,
   Empire only a dream, something that lived out its time.
Armed with their own strength men need not fear the machines of the new age,
   No more be ground by the wheel, no more be slaves for the call.
Simpler even than simple, simpler even than instinct
   Easy as sitting to cook, easy as lying to fuck
Obvious pieces that fatefully fit and have joy in the fitting
   Clip slams home with a click, chamber charged with a cock,
Thumb on the lever to let loose, take aim and hold tight,
   Tolerant pistons jerk, blow back drum rolls bark.
Restlessly Mikhail dreams in his sickbed here where the age ends,
   Far from the fate of his name, far from remembering home.